I'm not who I used to be.

Why? 
Because I've been hurt. Ive gone through a lot of shit which has made me who I am today. Over these past years, so many things have happened, things that have change who I used to be.. little things, big things, everything. As time passes, no one person stays the same. People tell me that Ive changed.. don't you think I know that? Of course Ive changed, Im not going to stay the same person forever. Pain does that to people.

Have you ever missed someone so much it hurt?

I mean, It seriously pained you to be awake. You start to feel nauseous when you think of the person. You get a headache, your heart beats so hard it feels like it’s going to just come right out of your chest. It hurts your mouth to smile. Your body feels like it’s shutting down. You just want to curl up in a ball and cry. 

You just want to die.